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Colorful-Ayako

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Hey everybody! ^^; It's been a LONG while since I've last written anything. Life kinda kicked my ass. BUT, I'm back and feeling more inspired and motivated than ever before! I just shot a set for Suicide Girls yesterday, and Wednesday I'll be shooting a Zivity set. I'll do my best to get a photo or two up in the next few weeks. In fact, I did manage to get one back today:

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ALSO, I just set up a fan page on Facebook and I would LOVE it if you all would go over there and give it a "like" X3 >> Faccceeeebbbooookkkkk << 
<3 In the meantime, feel free to check me out on my other sites.


Love to all of you!! <3<3<3

<3 Ayako
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OMG!!

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I'm so excited!! My first zivity set just went live!!! :D Go check it out and vote! It's an awesome place!! www.zivity.com/models/Ayako/ph…

Also, I've got a fashion show this weekend that I'm super stoked about! It's Visage Macabre in Kansas City! Visit www.visagemacabre.com for more info :D eee I'm so excited!!



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GO VOTE FOR ME ON ZIVITY!!! AAAAAAAAAA!!!


ok I'm done :D
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Well I'm feeling better, everyone at work was super great about my return, no questions asked :] I'm slowly and surely on the way to feeling "normal" again... It's a process... But I'm staying strong! My friend is still getting to me at work. Every time I pass her, if I happen to glance over, she's staring at me. Not just a "spacey" stare, but like a "stare into your soul" kinda stare... With a smirk on her face. Yeah, she's a bitch.

Anyways, I'm super busy all November! I'm going to be posing for a drawing class on the 7th and the 21st, and I've got a shoot at the end of November with D-Orrin Brown for a zivity(www.zivity.com) set ;D Speaking of, I've got a zivity set still in progress for getting accepted :] I'm super excited! All they need to do now is process the paperwork, and I'll be good to go! I'll make sure to let you guys know when the set is going live!! I've also got a fashion show next weekend with Oblivion Design! It's called "Faces of Death"! It's on November 7th at midnight! I'm still not sure of where it's at, but I'll put it in this journal entry when I find out!

I've got some new pics up in my gallery from my shoot with Mojokiss, you should check those out as well!

<3 Ayako
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Hmmm

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Well I'm going back to work on Monday, but I'm super nervous. Being gone so long, how do I explain everything to my group? *sigh* That, and I don't even know if I'll have a job when I get back there. Neither my primary doctor nor the psychologist I just went to see write notes for short term disability. I hope that the fmla is okay at least...

And yes, like I said, I saw a psychologist for the first time yesterday. We didn't get very far, it was mostly legal stuff, which is nerve wracking in and of itself(you can still give my info away?? I thought you couldn't do that at all T_T), but I think this is a new chapter in my life, and I'm ready to go forward. Move forward, move on. Be a better person. I'm on the road to self discovery! And as much as my modeling has been a great part of that path, it's not enough. It was time to have a professional step in. And I'm glad I did it :] At least this doctor doesn't prescribe anything... She says she uses a method with just words. She doesn't like or believe in using medicine as a way to cure, which I think is great! I'm hoping that this lexapro is just temporary for me... It's not doing a whole lot, although I guess I feel a little less depressed. My anxiety hasn't subsided much, but I think I'm mostly anxious about going back to work.

It will all be better soon, regardless. I just have to keep my chin up and look at the positive side of things! As hard as that may be...
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Well...

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I wish I had happier things to talk about while I'm trying to keep my life updated, but I'm still a mess, and trying to get over what an unbelievable cunt my ex best friend is being... Now threatening to take me to court over a $20 book/dvd I can't get to because it's in storage. She also is accusing me of harassing her when in reality, she's the one harassing me. She is accusing me of dropping off pictures at her mom's house, when I've never seen those pictures before in my life. At first when I heard that, I was freaking out because I thought she meant our childhood photos, which I've been missing since I moved out of my apartment, and I thought I could have blacked out and drove to her mom's house with those somehow. That was not the case however. Her boyfriend was kind enough to show me the pictures that were brought to her mom's house, and I have never had any of those pictures. Granted I've seen them before, but I've never had any prints.

And on another shitty note, my boyfriend's dad is being a complete and total asshole, and scaring the shit out of me and my poor cats. He hates cats you see... So whenever they meow, he basically throws shit at them. And now he's asking for rent, $300, even though he said we could stay there for free. We do our best to make ourselves nonexistant since he OBVIOUSLY enjoys his alone time, but apparently that's not enough. Did I mention this house isn't even halfway finished? There's no carpet, tons of bugs everywhere, no toilet/sink in the main bathroom, the shower has a plastic sheet that's stapled to the ceiling to keep the water from getting on the concrete floor, and there are no walls in that bathroom, just insulation. Oh, and lots of spiders. My feet are always dirty b/c of the concrete, lol.

I went to the doctor on Thursday, got a sample perscription of Lexapro. So far it really isn't working too well... If anything it made me feel like I had just drank a little bit. Not to the point of being tipsy, but to the point where your body feels really relaxed. I also felt very full... And yawned a lot... >.> The yawning made me gag a little, too...

And because of all my wonderful issues, I'm afraid I'm coming down with a cold.

Life is lovely and ever changing... *sigh*

p.s. I still could really use some financial help if someone is willing to do so... My paypal name is animechick101@aol.com... Any little bit helps! Even if it's just $1.00!

And I would also like to lead you all to another page: :icondpxdeviant: Help him out as well! Buy a print! :] It's always nice to help someone out in a time of need ^_^
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